I read through your last post a little late. But I have to say some things.

I really admire you a lot Anna. I don't think you know how much. You work hard, you recognize the things that you need improvement on. You are afraid of your mom's opinion but you've gotten this far, damn it, and that means that you are willing to rewrite and go all the way. You are only 21. To have gotten so far in so little time is little less than amazing. I am amazed by you.