John is committed to: his people’s safety, no matter the cost; and his own belief, no matter how wrong, in what he thinks is right. He is not committed to: relationships he knows will only end in anger, in tears. He’s spread so thin already; he can’t afford to give what’s left over to another’s trust.
And yet: instinct wars with desire, watching him as he sleeps. The cost, he believes, will be quite high—to them both. But this feels right, in his heart. He gives it so little quarter.
Tonight, then—tonight he can find certainty in this.
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Lullaby
Date: 2006-03-25 08:16 pm (UTC)And yet: instinct wars with desire, watching him as he sleeps. The cost, he believes, will be quite high—to them both. But this feels right, in his heart. He gives it so little quarter.
Tonight, then—tonight he can find certainty in this.