For want of a tooth...

[trinityofone]

Thank you, everyone, for all the thoughtful advice you gave me yesterday. It was really appreciated, and empowering, and I was starting to feel brave and ready to do something.

Then I went to my second dentist appointment this morning.

The two cavities are worse than they thought. At the very least, I need root canals; at worst, the teeth are going to have to be replaced. Months of work are going to be involved, and thousands of dollars.

So...that's it. I can't quit. Because of my fucking teeth, I have to stay at this job that I hate.

I just...y'know, if this were a novel, this would be the kind of plot twist that would really piss me off. You can change your life but what's stopping you is DENTISTRY? What bullshit is this?

Anyway. I'm back at the office now with temporary fillings, puffy chipmunk cheeks, and a head woozy from Novocain, which is also probably the only thing that's keeping me from smashing stuff. I know that this is not a tragedy; this is an inconvenience, an annoyance. I'm not actually ill, so it could be a lot worse; with my insurance and those savings I was talking about, I will even be able to afford this (I think), although all that fallback money is going to be gone. It could be so much worse.

But I'm furious at myself, and I guess at the world? At TPTB? Fate? Way to give me a big old FU, guys; I think I got the message.

So, I guess it's back to work.

Sigh.

Comments

[trinityofone.livejournal.com]

My insurance unfortunately does end on the last day I work, but I may look into that COBRA thing. Still, I have to pay on my own and then get reimbursed, so...

God, handling money SUCKS. Adulthood? Kinda sucks.

[amireal.livejournal.com]

Check into COBRA and then check in with your dentists, they all take CCs now since they're so expensive, they might have payment plans as well.

[amireal.livejournal.com]

p.s. Want unbeta'd fic to read for a cheer up?

[trinityofone.livejournal.com]

I can't right now; I have too much to catch up on because I was out this morning. (I shouldn't even be on LJ right now, but I needed the moral support.) If you can wait till tomorrow...?

[amireal.livejournal.com]

It's all about you, I don't expect you to beta it just read and relax! I can send it whenever you like! I am just hear trying on my new bras and avoiding actual packing that I should be doing. *g*

[trinityofone.livejournal.com]

Oh! Sorry, I'm not thinking clearly. DRUGS. But then yes, please, send it over! It'll make a great reward for finishing these captions.