Not like TV

[trinityofone]

How can my life be so surreal, and yet so boring? This morning as I was walking to work, I actually saw a guy applying Axe Body Spray as he strolled down Santa Monica Boulevard; shockingly, it did not make me want to rip off my bra, throw myself on his skinny emo-boy frame, and ravish him. Also, it smelled appallingly like women's perfume—really floral. Okaaaaay...

And now, in an hour, I have to interview Kim Raver, who was Jack Bauer's love interest on 24 (which I keep calling ER in my head, and god, please don't let me do that in the actual interview) and who's now starring in The Nine with my cousin, Tim Daly. And they have, like, UST and stuff. Which I am supposed to ask her about. Which makes me, hmm, just a little uncomfortable? Y'know? And so I am sitting here, listening to Duran Duran and having a panic attack. I hate my life.

Seriously. I already know that the highlight of my day is going to be that there's a new House tonight. There is something very wrong here.

Comments

[amireal.livejournal.com]

Maybe because you don't beleive it can happen? *shrug* Keep working and just wait for that awesome opportunity. Right now collect business cards, make friends. Write when you get the chance and see what happens, you have a job and an apartment, that's JUST step one. *grin*

[trinityofone.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. But I feel like I'm all-too-easily settling into a holding pattern: too tired when I get home to write, and not working on my novel, and watching a lot of TV and just generally being a waste of space. If I don't make things happen for myself, they're not going to happen at all. But I feel like I don't have any energy or self-discipline any more.

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[amireal.livejournal.com]

Take an Ami school of thought moment. RELAX and let life lead you around for a bit. Stop worrying. Take a vacation from everything other than the now. Do things for fun, get your work done, SETTLE IN. It's still not that long ago that you got hired. It's like starting a new exercise routine, the whole body has to get used to it. Get those writing muscles that you need for your job flexed and soon you'll find it easier. Suddenly you'll have some extra energy.

[trinityofone.livejournal.com]

Relaxing is sadly something at which I do not excel. I'm too impatient! I'm wasting my life at this stupid job and yes I know I've only been here four months but it feels like an eternity whimper gah.

If I believed that pot would actually calm me down instead of making me a raging paranoid (or make me eat a whole loaf of white bread) I would seriously consider smoking it.

[amireal.livejournal.com]

*pets Rodney Trin* Shhh. Breathe.

Get a manicure. Find a massage place (You're in freaking LA, there is probably one next door!) settle in and enjoy the fall premieres. Loosen those shoulders. Tell yourself for TWO WHOLE WEEKS you will not fret about the future Ms. Graduated early and is Talking to Someone who is nearly 25 and still working for it. :p

[sonofzeal.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. It was like that for me at Nintendo, and I was working some absurd hours. What I eventually started doing was taking a walk after work, hell or high water. This improved my energy level and gave me time to do nothing but think, which helped conjure ideas for my stories. It's positive feedback loops. Keep watching tv, you'll keep not having energy. But start taking walks, not even long walks, and it'll help get your heart beating. Once you get the energy, the self-discipline will be irrelevant...you'll just write.