Giant cartoon asses & existential dilemmas

[trinityofone]

I just received a press release for a show about a giant cartoon ass that fights crime. A GIANT CARTOON ASS THAT FIGHTS CRIME. *cries*

This...may be only tangentially related to giant cartoon asses, but god, I want to change what I'm doing, change my life so badly. This feels like such a dead end and it's so depressing. I start thinking crazy thoughts like, "I could join the army!" "I could become a cop!" "I could become a stewardess flight attendant!" Because that at least would be different. But I'd probably be miserable doing those things, too.

I feel like I need to do something bold, take some sort of leap of faith, but not only am I a coward, I don't even know what kind of leap to take. What the hell should I do with myself? How come I don't even really know what I want anymore?

I was at a party the other night and one of my parents' friends, who's an entertainment journalist and who I worked as a PA for one summer during college, was there. It was the first time I'd seen her since I graduated. She said, "So, you're working at an entertainment magazine now? You went to Berkeley for that?" She was "kidding," but...Jesus Christ, why am I doing this? What the hell am I doing with my life?

How do I change?

Comments

[inthekeyofd.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel..believe me.

All I can say is this..and hopefully this helps, think of the job as this: A starting point, a place from which to jump off from, a first step in a journey..that way it's not so bad when you think of it as a possible means to an end.

Me, I'd kill to be a PA myself, you are always on the move, you help out, you work..now that is something I'd really love to do..okay, it may be down a few pegs from what I'd really love to do, but still, it's so SO much better than what I'm doing right now.

All I can offer is this, take a breath, relax, think of what makes you happy, when you realize that, you'll know what you want to do.