Giant cartoon asses & existential dilemmas

[trinityofone]

I just received a press release for a show about a giant cartoon ass that fights crime. A GIANT CARTOON ASS THAT FIGHTS CRIME. *cries*

This...may be only tangentially related to giant cartoon asses, but god, I want to change what I'm doing, change my life so badly. This feels like such a dead end and it's so depressing. I start thinking crazy thoughts like, "I could join the army!" "I could become a cop!" "I could become a stewardess flight attendant!" Because that at least would be different. But I'd probably be miserable doing those things, too.

I feel like I need to do something bold, take some sort of leap of faith, but not only am I a coward, I don't even know what kind of leap to take. What the hell should I do with myself? How come I don't even really know what I want anymore?

I was at a party the other night and one of my parents' friends, who's an entertainment journalist and who I worked as a PA for one summer during college, was there. It was the first time I'd seen her since I graduated. She said, "So, you're working at an entertainment magazine now? You went to Berkeley for that?" She was "kidding," but...Jesus Christ, why am I doing this? What the hell am I doing with my life?

How do I change?

Comments

[kudra2324.livejournal.com]

don't feel like you need to know the answer now and start out on a path that leads inexorably to one end. seriously. if you don't know what you want to do except that you know you don't want to do what you're doing right now, do something else. anything else. rinse and repeat as much as needed until you find something that you don't hate getting up in the morning for. and don't let anyone tell you that have to start on The Career Path now. not only is that bullshit unless you're planning to be, i don't know, an extremely specialized neurosurgeon or something, but it's also where midlife crises of "oh my god, what have i been doing for the last 20 years???" lie.

and those are my two totally unsolicited cents :).